Do not have sexual relations with a man as one does with a woman; that is detestable.
Leviticus 18:22 (NIV)
It’s difficult for me to say in a community that condones homosexuality, but my God has said that it is detestable. And I have decided to follow Him.
Just one of those days. Not only did I have a strenous workload today at school with multiple quizzes. I had to cope with some conflicting news.
Putting my religion aside, I consider myself a conservative person when it comes to relationships. Or maybe it’s just the girl in me that wishes for that bit of sweet romance. But the concept of “first times” are supposed to be special, right?
It could be something small like holding hands. Or kissing. Or even hugs. I’ve definitely noticed. The more something occurs, the more common it gets. It, at least for me, doesn’t have the same heart throbbing affect. It becomes easier to do.
So let me talk about the real topic here: sex. Gasp! I mentioned it. Sex.
Sex is becoming more frequent in unmarried couples these days. It’s great that they can be intimate with each other. But where is the love? With physical intimacy comes greater responsibilities and deeper emotional attachment. I might be one of the extremes in thinking that sex brings more conflicting emotions. And it might be strange to read that when I know people who are casual with sex, I cry for them.
They might not regret the choices they made, but there is always an attachment that goes with sex. People are prone to jealousy and posessiveness. With sex, everything is lain out for your partner. But will they cherish and protect that vunerability? At the moment that person is your entire world, but then are you going to marry them?
I think there is a reason relationships gets strange after a break up. Isn’t it because you have memories of being intimate with a person who is no longer close to your heart anymore? Then imagine knowing that a person you don’t care for anymore knows your kinks and such in bed. What if you remain good friends even after breaking it off? And then dating another person. Your present lover will have a better reason to be jealous. I don’t know about your guys, but I do not want my boyfriend knowing the figure of another woman.
I guess I’m just conflicted about my friends already having sex. I think they are worth so much more than to be simply having sex with their lovers. I’m that friend that threatens the lover and makes sure to keep them in line. I never like my friends’ lovers very much. Cause my friends are worth it. They need to be treasured, and I don’t know if their lover understands that. I don’t know if they will treat their lover as they would a million dollar check. Cause if they don’t, they can think twice about dating my friend nonchalantly. Not to mention will they ever get near their chastity.
The Missing Chapter 